There are some parts of my history I'm don't like, then haven't we all, but I have tried really hard to do the right thing and i am still trying, The last two years have been hard when they should have been two of the best considering what has happened. deep down I'm a family man, I suppose this because me and my brother never had so much of it when we were kids. Mum was not to blame.

We all need friends or some one to talk to, this is why us humans don't do well in solitary confinement its a form of torture.

No training today, got a slight infection in my ankle I think; waiting for the results but will be going tomorrow. When I miss a couple of days my blood sugar will rise and depending on the days away from the gym, say min of 4, its harder when I return.

If I don't go then everything suffers, aches pains around back, hip, groin, shoulder due to the broken ankle, apart from the shoulder which was down to the job.

Tomorrow is chest day, I will have to start to train legs the best i can until the operation, and also some aerobic exercise for the expedition